I am very frustrated by something, and can't work out if I'm being petty or if my frustration is valid. It's in relation to my ex-boyfriend, so there is probably some pettyness in there somewhere, but I hope that it's not the entire reason. There's a bunch of stuff going on, but I guess the main aggravation is that I feel like he's moved into the social space I left. That is a very arrogant statement, I know, and not really true, but it's how I feel. He's socialising with all of my friends and has joined a student group that I was the chair for for a year. He's not even a student! That was MY thing! (ok, that's totally petty). I just feel like there's nothing left in Birmingham that's just mine. He's appropriated everything. I believe he's even going to church socials and he never once went to church with me. In 4 years. I've been out of Birmingham for 5 months and now he's at the pub with my church friends. WTF?!
I know that life goes on without me - both for him and the whole of Birmingham. I just feel like he's taking my space and not leaving anything for me to visit because he's there. I sound like a total child, I know. I just can't shake this. I swear he never made this much effort with my entire social circles when we were still together. It's very frustrating.
Sorry. All you're getting today is a rant. And the awesome news that I went for a run this evening. Yay running!
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